Tuesday, July 22, 2014

We Are Who We Are.

Pinafore, Collared Shirt, Pendant Necklace: Forever21.
Black Flats: Thrifted.
Hair Bow: Claire's.

Hello there!

My birthday is coming up so soon- August 1st! I've written about it before, but I actually really hate my birthday. It's never been a fun day for me. I'm not one for having attention on myself, so a whole day where everyone celebrates me? It makes me so uncomfortable! I also always get my expectations up really high for the day (even though I try not to), but usually am let down. Because after all, it is just a day like any other day, but I just happened to be born on it.

This year I'm especially nervous and kind of dreading things because it's my 21st, which is such a 'big' birthday that has a lot of meaning to it. But to me, again...I don't want to make a big deal out of things. I think I have decided to have a drink for my 21st though. Something super light and feminine-- I'm shooting for a birthday cake martini or a chocolate mudslide.  It'll be my first alcoholic drink ever! Not sure how I feel about that yet.

I've been very stressed out lately and things have just been mounting...hoping everything calms down soon. Between working a ton of hours at my job in a more stressful position, helping my mom with her broken leg, house sitting, preparing for Italy, and trying to keep up with this blog...I'm just sinking. I feel like sleeping a lot to avoid everything I have to do, but I know that won't help anything. Praying for strength and peace! x

With much love, Lauren.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Lay Me In Roses.

Rose Dress: c/o OASAP.
Olive Jacket: Thrifted.
Hair Bow: Claire's.
Flats: c/o Pink and Pepper.
Bird Cage Necklace: Target.
Lipstick in MAC's Russian Red.


I had this post all ready yesterday but couldn't think of anything to write about, so I decided to wait till today. Still nada, ha. Oh well, perhaps for tomorrow's post I'll think of something to write about 

With much love, Lauren. 

Friday, July 18, 2014

Cause' You're the Only One.

Floral Sweater: Forever21.
Olive Shorts: Thrifted.
Bunny Shoes: Le Bunny Bleu.
Necklace: Gift from Katie.

 Hello everyone, and happy weekend to you!

After doing shipment this morning at work my family and I went out for stuffed crust pizza--mmmm, now that's a Friday evening! I will miss American style pizza while I'm overseas, but I hear Italian pizza (and especially in Florence) is excellent. It was a month from yesterday that I leave and I'm feeling good. Excited! I'm feeling better instead of the nervousness I've been feeling the past few weeks. I know that it will come back eventually (hopefully not as bad as before), but I'm better equipped to handle it and have confidence that it's all going to be okay. 

I'm going to keep this short for this evening--love you guys so much and hope your weekend is lovely! x

With much love, Lauren. 

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Cops and Robbers.

Striped Crop Top, T-Strap Heels, Earrings: Thrifted.
High Waisted Jeggings: Forever21.
Lipstick in MAC's Lady Danger.

Hello everyone!

Thankfully I've been feeling much better and less stressed than I was this past week. A lot of things have worked out on their own since then, and praying + talking to God a lot has most definitely helped calm me down. Thank you all for the prayers and well wishes!

For some reason it's just been really hard for me to blog this summer, which makes me very sad :( A combination of working more than last, being worried/stressed about a lot more, having a boyfriend (it does take up time!), and feeling somewhat uninspired with my outfits...it's kind of put the breaks on blogging, but hasn't brought me to a total stop. Which honestly, I don't ever feel like I could stop blogging all the way. I love it. It brings me so much peace, companionship, and creative release. But I suppose I have to realize that in some points of my life, I will be busier than others and have troubles that set me back from blogging as much as I'd like. The important thing is to blog when I'm ready, when it feels natural and unforced. That's my number one rule for blogging: do it only when you want to. It's not like exercising where you feel better after doing it and you're glad you did. It's more like..."I'm not proud of what I put out and I'm just doing this for other people instead of myself." Always blog for yourself--that's the person you have to do it for. 

At Aeropostale I've started working the merchandise flow position on top of my sales associate position which really excites me! Basically what merchandise flow is it's the person who takes care of shipment. Most days of the week we receive boxes of new merchandise or replinishment that needs to be unpacked, sensored, folded/hung, and put in its proper place in the stockroom so it's able to be found. I've always wanted to try the job out, and one day I just asked if I could and I was so surprised when they put me on for this whole week! It's a pretty labor intensive, fast paced, detail oriented job; and I might even dare to say harder than working the floor (which does have its own set of difficulties). But I really enjoy it and it brings me so much curiosity and fascination to study hands on yet another part of this multifaceted industry I'm becoming a part of. 

Whew, must get to bed for an early morning tomorrow of just that ^^! I hope to talk to you all very soon again! x

With much love, Lauren.

Monday, July 14, 2014

Life's Snapshots #46.

Told myself I wasn't going to buy anything more for the store...then I found these!

Writin' letters on some new stationary + that day I got this darling, matching ring in the mail from an instagram friend. 

Golly, this dress was so beautiful that I found at the antique store the other day!

Had a good time at the library last week and found a book on traveling in Italy that has been helpful!

Grandma made Hershey's chocolate pudding. A++++

Which one to choose...

Finally got a holder for all of my lipsticks!


Went to TJ Maxx a few weeks ago and picked up shoes for Italy + a good jacket for over there!

Roses will forever be my favorite. If I have a daughter someday, I might name her Rose.

Super cheesin' because this was such a good day with my mom.

Ugh, gourmet cupcakes from the West Side Market :) :) :)

Celebrated Steak N Shake's 80th birthday with milkshakes with Ryan!

I want to live in an old apartment in a downtown district someday, just like these. 

It's been quite awhile since I've done a life's snapshot's post, and even these ones are from the very beginning of summer! I've been trying to savor and really enjoy the last bits of summer that I have before I leave...but I always tend to get a little sad as July comes around and definitely August because summer is ending.

Anyways, enough sad talk! If you'd care to, you can follow me on instagram with @passingwhimsies :)

With much love, Lauren.

Saturday, July 12, 2014

Never, Ever Give Up.

Never Ever Give Up Shirt: Aeropostale.
High Waisted Shorts, Black Flats: Thrifted.

Hi everyone

We had a new floor set at Aero the other day and when I saw we got this shirt in... I knew there was no way I couldn't not have it. It's absolutely perfect and represents everything I stand for. Never giving up has been my life mantra throughout the years amidst everything I go through...it's helped and seen me through a lot of difficulties, and I know the phrase will certainly get me through all I'm going through now...excited to have it as a reminder to wear on my heart

 So, I've talked here and there about how one of my absolute favorite songs is Oceans by Hillsong. The lyrics ring very, very true for my upcoming trip, and can also be encouraging as a less literal metaphor no matter what struggles we're going through. I've been praying a lot lately and really placing my burdens on Him, and sometimes you wonder as a Christian, does He hear me? How can this supposed 'God of the World' answered little ole me down here on the earth, amongst millions asking for His help? Well He does. And I mean, I always have faith that He does hear me and shall answer my prayers, but often times it's hard to be having what seems like a one sided conversation with God.  

When I went to work this evening I was having a tough time dealing with things and did some praying along the way and tried to play Oceans on my phone to comfort me. It wasn't working and I was really frustrated because it was all I wanted at that moment to be comforted and hear the song. So, I prayed that maybe I could hear it on the radio before I went on since it wasn't working on my phone. It didn't play though and I went into work and got through it all fine and was driving home. Perfectly timed, minutes before I got home, just enough time to hear one more song on the radio...it played. Oceans played. I've only ever heard it once on the radio before and I listen to the Christian radio station all the time, so it's such a crazy odd. I couldn't help but just cry in thanksgiving to Him who hears me and answers my prayers. Who nurtures me, wipes away my tears with his hands, and loves me unconditionally. I'm in awe of His greatness.

With much love, Lauren.

Friday, July 11, 2014

Always Looking Up.

Coral Dress: Forever21.
Floppy Hat: Thrifted.
Tan Sandals: TJ Maxx.
Bracelet: JcPenney's.
Lipstick in Mark's Coral Fixation.

Hello everyone!

I've been going through a lot of changes and feelings lately that have been hard and different to deal with. On the fourth of July my family and I went hiking and my mom actually fell and broke her leg. It's been a stressful and hard last week taking care of her and just having everything changed. You don't realize how much your parents take on until you're taking it on for them...she gets surgery on Monday and it'll be even harder because then she REALLY can't move for two weeks. It's hard because it's so easy for everything to change in your life in a second--it's scary, actually pretty terrifying, because you never know what's next. I know that she's going to be fine though, but it's just kind of turned all of the plans I had for the next month upside down before I go to Italy. But I can't be selfish; I must adjust to these changes and carry on.

Also, for the last few weeks or so I've taken on trying to become more fit! I took up riding a bike again and have fallen in love with it...it was my first step in just deciding I want to live a healthier lifestyle. Since I stopped competitively swimming a few years ago I stopped caring completely about my health and about my body. Ate what I want, didn't exercise, and just...didn't care! I've been considered 'overweight' for my height and age for a few years now and it's always kind of bothered me. I'm the type of person who is perfectly happy with my body and how it is. It took me a LONG time to become satisfied, and to finally be at that point and be told that I shouldn't be? I got super defensive and it made me even more against fitness, and thought that not everyone was supposed to be super thin and fit into this mold. What I was missing though by getting so defensive was the health aspect of things. I wasn't healthy, and I've noticed this in the day to day activities in my life that I do and the way I feel. Although I am satisfied with the appearance of my body, I want to be healthier. I want to be able to do more things and feel better physically. So, I've been doing some exercising when I have time and feel motivated (which I have been pretty good so far), and also watching what I eat. I don't really want to call it dieting, because I'm not cutting out food. I am just a HUGE over eater when it comes to sweets, and I don't need all of the ones that I eat. So I've been watching and being more reasonable with the things I put in my body. I would like to lose 10 pounds, but I don't have a timeline for it. Just at my own pace as I can work on it. I've lost three pounds already, which is exciting and encouraging! It will be nice to keep in mind when I know things will get harder and possibly more discouraging. 

Thirdly, I've become very anxious about my trip to Italy. I've just started visualizing things and they're becoming more real now that it's about a month away. It's scary to me, and then that's frustrating to me that I'm scared because...this is what I wanted! I'm going to Europe! It makes me feel selfish and just confused at why I've suddenly become so fearful when I am blessed to have this opportunity. I've kind of been walking around with this knot in my stomach thinking about things and worrying about these struggles I'll be coming across. I had a good cry last night though, talked with my parents, and talked with my boyfriend's mom (who is an awesome Christian woman I really look up to) about things on a spiritual level... and feel a lot better about things with a combination of those. I would always appreciate any prayers you could send me though of keeping positive and having courage for the things I'm going to do...it means so, so much to me! Leave a prayer for me to pray for you about if you need it, too :)

Thank you all for always being here with me through all of the changes I've been in the last few years, last year, and the ones I'm going through now...you all are the reason I can stay strong amidst changes! x

With much love, Lauren.